Who are you, who who who who?

Ok so I've neglected blogging for a while... which is annoying because I've read books that I should review and listened to music that I should review but I just don't have the time to sit and blog for an hour or so. When I'm not working I'm taking breaks in the form of not writing so while I could blog in my breaks it's writing and that makes the break feel less breaky.

Since the last blog I have read: Ink Exchange and Fragile Eternity (both by Melissa Marr) and started on Acorna's People (Anne McCaffrey). I've bought a greatest hits of The Who (because they are awesome and CSI is awesome) and fallen further in love with MCR and started learning tab for Unintended to see if I can't crack guitar tabs (also learning to bar chord which is starting to work sometimes =D). I've played on Rainbow 6 Vegas 2 with my brother (FPS) (he's better than I am), Viva Pinata (again) and some Dynasty Warriors 6 (again). I've been to a concert, rehearsals, slept to much and worked too little. I've fallen back in love with classical music, especially the more modern, slightly dissonant music.

I've eaten more candy in the past couple of days than I have in the past few months and I'm still going. I'm no further forward with my tai chi but I'm still going with it because it is the most wonderfully soothing thing to do.

I've gained a piercing and now have 7 which is a better number but I'm still trying to work out if I can feasibly make it to 11 without looking overkill... if I can't I'll have to settle on 9.

I've been snapping pictures on my camera as often as I can, but losing days through working. I've discovered the joys of Spotify for my work but can't ever see it replacing iTunes and buying cds. I've looked though old photos and remembered that the old days before medication weren't actually all that bad sometimes.

I've realised that I am who I am and that is who I want to be.

I'm not moving out any time soon but I'm kind of ok with that. I would love more room space but don't have the mental strength yet to tackle living without the parental wing to guide me and keep me safe.

I can finally climb my bed-ladder without anything on it (except my current book and iPod for nighttimes). and I don't remember the last time that was actually possible.

I'm hermitising but actually don't feel too bad for it, although I should get out and see more people... maybe in a month when uni is finally over.

I'm looking forward to the new American McGee's Alice game and I'm very much determined to play through the original (360 download) before cracking into the sequel and completing that! Also rather determined to make some progress again on Persona 4 and to finish FFXIII this summer and maybe crack open Dragon Age again. 

At some point I'm going to start looking for jobs but it's of no hurry anymore since I'm not moving out.

I have a lot of work to do and I'm not sure how I will finish it in time but I have to because it's the final stretch. This is it. No more past this. I'm aiming for a 2.1. I might hit lower, I mostly likely won't hit higher but that is my aim. I'll keep going until I make it. Sure there may be some late nights and early mornings and some removal of the internet to force work out but it will get done. I will finish this damned degree. Then I shall drink and sleep and dance to my heart's content.

I think that's it. A whirlwind catch up. Back to the workings!

I'm wrecking this evening already and loving every minute of it, the things she does to please, she's just a little tease.

OMG how many wednesday's have I missed? There is a really good reason for that. I've kind of run out of wishing for things. I mean there are things I still want but they're all kind of... well materialistic. I mean they all have been but it feels like it's the wrong time for that right now. But I will tell you more of my materialistic wants today because I feel in the mood to =D

I want this fellow, not with white skin though... with natural pink but it's the make up that I would like. I've been talking to Blue too much about these dolls and I keep wanting them more and more but at £300+ I can't really justify having one. Overglorified barbie dolls technically but so so so pretty. I'd have to develop the character before I bought one too. I know I want to make a Reki (fem), Seppha (male) and a Snow (male) but I also kind of want to make L'luo and Dust (both male) and possibly Ryan (obv. male). I tend to make up male characters it seems =p. Although I have just seen an almost perfect Rosemary... I need to get off this website. Snow will be a difficulty to get because he has elfin ears and they aren't easy to get, they also tend to have vampire teeth when they have pointed ears and he certainly doesn't want that. Dust will be tricky to get the right skin tone (being overly tanned) and then all the wigs will be really tricky and will have to be customs...

I should make less complicated characters =p

I'm getting a jacket similar to that one hopefully tomorrow. It won't be real leather... some sort of synthetic nonsense but it's a nice shape and style. I'm also hopefully going to get a proper leather one soon. I might look at the leather ones tomorrow and things may change. I'm into being a biker chick right now. I think that's the Reki influence. She's a lot cooler than I am. Maybe I'll just buy both =D I do like having clothes. This isn't really a wishlist item since I know I'm buying one or the other tomorrow but it is something pretty I want =D

I want to learn to walk in high heels. I can't even walk in shoes with anything more than about an inch. I would love to be able to go out in heels and it not break my feet within seconds. Have I discussed this already? I don't know but I have a desire to go out a little more often than I have done and I would like to be able to wear heels (with cons kept in my bag as an emergence back up =p) so I'm going to practise in my little town shoes. They're really cute. We'll see if I can do it.

Ok done now. That was kind of meh actually. I was wondering why I am part of so many different blogging devices and I can't actually work out why. I don't know why I tell people about the things I do or want. I have a twitter, tumblr, live journal and here. Only the live journal is hidden (because that's for a completely different purpose). Why do I blog? Why do I tweet? I don't honestly know. Am I looking for the internet fame that seems to occur to some people? Or am I just doing it for the experience? The craic? So my friends know more about what I am doing and maybe it will spark a conversation since I am pretty introverted at the moment? I'm not really sure.

Although I am a bit of a contradiction at the moment. I'm introverted except I've made my hair pink (and that got a lot of looks), I'm dressing up like a biker chick (that has involved some very very short skirts) and idk I feel a bit like I'm bouncing back and forth between different ideas. I have an urge to give myself a moustache and travel into town on the bus... but I don't think that would be the best idea I've ever had =p also then I'd be doing tai-chi with an eyeliner moustache... mebs not =p (edit: tai chi isn't even on today so that was a moot point).

For a long time I didn't like this band. You know that song? I Write Sins Not Tragedies? It was that song. I was on holiday and I woke up at least once every hour from about 2am with the lines "I chimed in with a 'haven't you people ever heard of closing the goddamn door?'" going through my head. I would have loved that song if it hadn't kept me up all night running through my head. I started listening to it recently and it has improved from just background music to music I would choose to listen to (and have rocked out to on the bus). I had the same thing with Fall Out Boy, they had to grow on me before I enjoyed their music. It's certainly going to be part of my playlist from now on =)

And rising =)

These albums are the ones I have by Emilie Simon, who is a french electronica artist. The first two (self titled, and vegetal) are very electronicapop (not electropop which is more owl city and cutesy people or like dance pop... this is electronica techniques with a poppier vocal... I know what I mean). La marche de l'Empereur is the soundtrack for the film (in English) The March of the Penguins (voice over by Morgan Freeman). It's a different sound but still very nice. I've been listening to her a lot. Some of her songs are in French and some are in English and all of them sound wonderful. I really like her music. Seriously check her out because she's interesting. I love Dame de Lotus and En Cendres (both from Vegetal) and I absolutely love her cover of Come As You Are (Original by Nirvana) which is from her live album A L'Olympia (I only have this track from there). There is also a Velvet Underground cover of Femme Fatale on the self titled album that is wonderful.

(all three)

46, 47, 48, 49

Ok I couldn't find the right cover but that will have to do (I am always bothered by not being able to find the right cover for things!). So I found this book in the local secondhand book shop (called The Keel Row for those who know) and thought... why not? I wanted to watch the film at some point but why not read the book first and see what the craic is. It's a pretty good book actually (a novella technically and it came first which I like =) ).

I can see the link in style from the way Holly Golightly speaks and the way that Blair Waldorf in Gossip Girl talks (Blair wants to be Holly and B@T is her favourite film so it makes sense but it's such a nice link!). She is an interesting character who doesn't really seem to know what she's doing except maybe she does she just pretends not to. It's a bit Catcher in the Rye (although set over a much longer period than just a few days).

It was enjoyable and not too long. The plot was nice but was more socially revolving than plotbased. It was a nice read. There were three other short stories in my version and they were rather nice as well. Again revolving more around thoughts and feelings and memories than plot but that is a nice change =).

I recommend it and now hope to snag a copy of the film from Joey who in turn gets to borrow the book =D

8/52 (I'm so behind on my book challenge... *shrugs*)

Ok, off to do a different task on my list of tasks to do today =D

Love Buttercup xxx

You can fall for chains of silver, you can fall for chains of gold

I've been neglecting my blogspace. I'm terrible =p... Actually I've not been doing that much really. Sleeping a lot. I seem to be terribly lacking in energy all the time and I'm not really sure why. Sleeping 12hours isn't even helping and normally that's one of the cures for me. Oh well.

Been doing quite a bit of work... I should really be doing more but I'm doing what I can so hopefully I'll graduate from uni this year. Not doing a masters... because well... a masters in music isn't going to help me get anywhere with anything so I'm just going to call it a day with my official musical education. I'm hopefully going to keep it up but at the moment I am far more interested in photography than music... whoops. I also may well be making some pewter pendants with the huge lump of lead-free pewter daddy gave me and the polymorph to make the master. I'm rather excited to try it out but I'm waiting for some extra time to play. I think I might draw up some designs... start off really basic but hopefully I'll be making more complicated designs. Proper metal work!

Also may be getting a little tutor help from daddy's friend at work who does a lot of jewellery design. Win!

I'll tell you if I start taking requests =p

I've noticed my hair is well fading fast... for a dye that everyone reviewed as the most longlasting semi-permanent dye it might as well be called permanent... it's not doing too great in my books. Idk... I expected something a little, better? The underneath that I play with (because it's so soft) and rubs against my clothes seems like it's completed reverted to my natural colour. Same with the strands that get tucked behind my ears. I might pick up some stargazer just before graduation to top it up (unless mama is really against me having pink hair for grad =p). Maybe my hair is trying to tell me that it's had enough of dyes and is rejecting it any way it can.

I finished my first MSH (monthly scavenger hunt) in March. 

 The mosaic of images that I submitted. From L-R

Hello Kitty!, Arch, Volume, Error Message, Cash Only.

Available, Marker, Escalator, Rough, Acid.

Washer, Illuminate, London Bridge, Limo, Ticket To Ride

Rainbow, Arrange, Vein, Elevator, Lips.

I'm really proud of myself for that because all of my photos were new for that month. Some people use quite a bit of archive work and it's allowed so that's not a bother but I like to only submit new works. Going to start work on this month's batch as well. I already have some ideas so that's a good start. But there are some mighty tricky ones! Some of them I was pretty proud of if I'm honest. I worked pretty hard to get the colours just right (as that is one of the most important things to me). I love colour! And macro =D

I've been playing a lot of guitar recently and if my throat would finally fix itself then I would be doing it a lot more. I'm enjoying singing Soul of Fireflies, California Dreamin' and Romeo and Juliet. They're my favourite ones right now =) maybe I'll let you hear one when I'm able to sing, and not mess up at least one chord everytime I play =p

I finished reading a book. The second of the Acorna series:

This book is turning more and more into the Tower and Hive series but I'm forgiving it for the fact that I love that series and this one is just as good so far. One thing I'm happy about is that I noticed that the name Johnny Greene (a character in this book) was familiar. Apparently he appears in every series (a bit like Cid from FF... yes I just compared AMcC to FF)... I only recognised his name from T&H (when I say that I combine T&H with The Pegasus trilogy where I actually remember his name from but there is a Gollee Gren who apparently is a variant name: The Johnny Greene Thread some seem tenuous at best... but that's probably because she didn't want literally the same name throughout) but that means he should also be in Dragons of Pern (although I don't remember his name... oh well I may just have to reread it all to find him! =p).

Anyway the plot is pretty good, I really like the characters and there are a lot of mishaps that occur that you could just imagine happening IRL. They're the sort that you would just happen because they would annoy you. Trust me, I do know what I'm saying even if I don't make any sense. If you like Sci-Fi/Fantasy (not either or... I actually mean a combo of the two) then you will probably like this. I can't wait to read the next two but I've started on a different book in the mean time and I'm already half way through =p (although it is a collection of short stories so it won't take long).

Okies I have stuff to do...

Love Buttercup xxx